There are days where I’m trying my hardest to be a better. But there are also days where all the weight just falls down on me. You were my peace and warmth. Now you’re not here. I feel lost, but I’m not losing any hope. I honestly don’t really talk to anybody or hangout with anyone. I simply just want your company. Just you. No one else.
I want to work things out, but I can’t right now. I just don’t feel like I deserve to. I can’t imagine my life without you be completely honest. Why is it so hard for me to confide to you. I want you, but my body is rejecting the push that I need to do.
I rather be alone if it isn’t with you. I don’t see the point of being with anyone else if I already feel this type of adoration. I don’t want anyone else to be with you. But I do understand if you are. I gotta be happy for you, right?
I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m still working on myself everyday. I wished I did things differently, but you know I just couldn’t because of my personal problems.
Just know you were never the cause. I just wish you were here to talk to me. I really need you. I don’t think I sound desperate at all. This is how I truly feel. If you aren’t like this with someone, then it wasn’t real to begin with. I hope one day or soon, I can reach to you.
Until then, I always wish you well.